Chris stood there and watched her. He could tell that she was still a bit off, but since he knew the reason, everything seemed to be alright. He just brushed it off as Jules acting out a bit. By now, Chris was used to it. Suddenly after Jules got up from the bed and rushed over to the washroom, he knew exactly what was going to happen before it did. He hated the sound of her having morning sickness, but he dealt with it well enough. After a moment, he went to check up on her. Chris leaned against the wall and knocked on the door, “Jules? You..okay?”
As soon as the sickness hit her, it was gone. It passed through her system and she was better. Jules sat up and cleaned herself up. Slowly she stood up and leaned over the sink. Splashing a bit of water over face. “I… Yeah.” She muttered out and took a deep breath. The blonde padded her way over to the door and swung it open, looking at Chris’ perfect face. “I want this baby Chris. I love you and I love the family we are creating.. It just scares me to know that I have more people to watch over you know? One I could handle, but two… It’s just scary. But I want this, I want this perfect angel you have helped me created… I love you.” Practically falling into his chest, she wrapped her arms around him tightly and sighed, “Are you ready to be a dad again?”
Chris took a step back, “Jules, like I said, I think you just need to relax. Babe, I’m not trying to demean you, or anything like that, alright? I just- I just think that you are blowing this up way too much.” Tilting his head to the side, he closed his eyes for a mere moment before looking back at her. “You’ll still be the one raising it. Getting a nanny doesn’t mean that she’s going to take the kid. It’s just so we get a break. The nanny doesn’t have to come by everyday, for every hour. That’s what a schedule is for. And I don’t know why you’re scared. You really shouldn’t be. Just think positive and positive things will happen. We’ll be fine, the kid will be fine, Ryan will be fine. Everything’s gonna be fine.”
Jules crossed her arms and stood still not sure how to feel. Her mind went blank and all she wanted to do was sleep. She didn’t want to talk about any of this anymore. Chis wasn’t getting her fear of fucking up. They had a perfect family and maybe this one was going to add turmoil. She was the second in her family and there was nothing but trouble. Scooping up the pregnancy tests, she tossed them all in the garbage. Without even thinking, Jules slipped into bed and let out a hefty sigh. The fear was making her a different person. Why was she not thrilled? She was being so dumb and she knew it, but the unknown was never something she loved. The blonde laid there for a few minutes before a wave of sickness, morning sickness, hit her. Sitting up abruptly, Jules ran into the bathroom, slamming the door swiftly behind her as she let the first step of being pregnant take over.
Chris’ face sort of scrunched up, “Yeah- not to tell other people, Jules. But of course you should tell me no matter what. It would’ve been my kid too…If we ever lost it, I would want to know about it before hand.” Crossing his arms, he faced her and then shrugged, “We can do it. I just think you’re over thinking things, like always. There isn’t any point in getting emotional. You just need to take a breather and relax. Calm down, and just don’t even worry about it. We’ve got money- we can easily hire a nanny or babysitter.”
"But what if it was a false alarm. I wanted to wait to see if this was all real." Jules stared up at him and felt her blood starting to boil. It felt like he was talking down to her, making her feel stupid. Did he not remember that last time she was pregnant and all the emotions and hormones she had. Quickly standing up, the blonde glared at him, "Don’t tell me to calm down Chris. This one wasn’t really planned like Ryan was. I want to have another child, don’t get me wrong, but I want to raise it. I won’t let a nanny do my job. And we’re just about to get Ryan off to school, she’s finally growing up and learning. She’s not as dependent and now we’re just going to start over and … I’m a raging bitch during the first trimester and then the not sleeping… Chris I love you and I love this unborn child, but I’m scared okay? I’m not sure why but round two is scaring me. We did such a great job with Ryan… What if we get cocky or things go wrong?"
Chris stopped where he was and just listened to Jules speak as he stared at all of the test. She said it herself, she missed her time of the month and it was suppose to start again, but it didn’t. Chris just couldn’t believe it. He couldn’t. Jules was pregnant again and they were going to be parents once more. Finally, it clicked. That’s why she was acting so strange and rejecting his intimate offers. “Wait…so we’re-” He paused again, a small smile curling onto his lips. “Babe, you’re preg- You’re pregnant again? This explains so much….I just-” Chris gave her a look, slightly disappointed, “Baby, why didn’t you tell me?”
Watching the expression on Chris’ face fall from happy to disappointed was not exactly what she wanted to see. Letting out a sigh, Jules shrugged a shoulder and looked up at him, “Because last time everyone told me to wait. Things happen you know? What if I told you and we lost it…” Her eyes flickered down to the tests, “Are you sure we’re ready for number two Chris? I mean with your new job, me almost done with my online schooling. I’d have to drop working for James on the side. I just.. Is this what we want?” Her eyes glanced up at him yet again, this time a little tear stained. She was having such conflicting emotions. She was beyond thrilled to have pregnant. This was another bundle of joy Chris and her created, but at the same time, who knew if they could handle number two.
Chris gave her an odd look. One that was disappointed, annoyed, angry and just confused. He had no idea what she was hiding. He knew something was up, he knew Jules was hiding something from him and that fact drove him insane. What the hell was going on? He just wanted to know- he needed to know. So of course, when she left the room, he followed her. “What do you mean there’s nothing to brush off? Julianne, I know you’re hiding something from me. Don’t give me that, I don’t want to pressure you, crap. It’s complete bull. You and I both know that.” Continuing on his way in the hall towards their room, he cleared his throat, “What- did you break something? Was it my guitar? If it was, I don’t care, I’ll just get a new on-” Upon entering the room, his eyes scanned over to something on their bed. Chris stopped his sentence and walked towards the mattress. He paused, turning his head towards her, “…Jules?” His expression changed drastically. There was more of a calm look to him, with a hint of shock.
Jules just sat on the bed and stared at him. Her eyes were dead and she wore no emotion. Remembering back when they found out about Ryan, the first positive test she had, Jules came running down the stairs, practically screaming. She cried for hours that day, calling everyone she knew, but everyone told her to be cautious. It was too early and things might go wrong. Luckily, they didn’t, but this time, Jules waited. She had missed her period a month ago and today was the day she was supposed to get it again and it didn’t come. “Those are from last month.” Sighing, she pulled the fifth one out of her makeup bag and placed it down, “This one is from this morning. I missed my period a month ago. Today I would have re-started… And I’m not. Which means I’m pregnant again.” Pursing her lips to the side, she just watched him cautiously, waiting for his reaction.
“Jules…” Chris paused, watching her get up and leave the room. With a shake of his head, he stood up and followed her. “Why won’t you tell me, hm? Look- I’m wide awake now, Jules.” He crossed his arms and leaned against the doorway of the kitchen. “You’re not being…fair. At all. What’s up with you? You’ve got me wondering what’s going on. You made me start wondering yesterday and now you’re just going to brush this off? You can’t do that. It isn’t right. I thought we told each other everything?”
The blonde dropped her dishes in the sink with a clank and paused when she heard his voice again. “I told you, I didn’t want to pressure you. I’m fine. We’re fine. There is nothing to brush off okay?” Sighing, she turned to face him. Her eyes flickered over his elongated body in the door way and her heart just stooped. She couldn’t keep this going. Jules was lying to the one person she loved more than anything. Without a word, she walked by him again, hoping he would follow her. If not, she would come back downstairs with her news. Continuing on, she made her way down the hall, up the stairs, down the hall again and into their room. This was the same room they conceived this child and Jules wasn’t sure if they were ready. Ryan was a handful in herself. She did all the activities in the world and she was going to be starting kindergarden next year. A new addition just seemed, well, out of the question. Quickly, she grabbed her makeup case from the bathroom, walked back into their bedroom where she laid out all four pregnancy tests next to her without a word.
Chris slowly opened his eyes, the sun’s light shinning directly at him. Squinting, he managed to pull himself out of bed and then put on a pair of sweat pants, along with a shirt. It was Saturday, a day that he normally to off just to relax. He worked every other day, which seemed to be fair. The least they could give him was a day.
Scratching his head, Chris mad his way down the stairs. Hearing the T.V., he walked over and entered the room. Seeing Jules there, he smiled, “Morning.” Continuing on his way, he fell back onto the couch and stared at the television. “So…I hope you don’t think I forgot about last night. You know- what we were talking about? Jules…I feel like you’re hiding something from me. And I really don’t like it- at all.” He turned his head, now staring over at her. It was true though. This was one of the first times that he ever felt uncomfortable or that she was keeping something important from him. It didn’t settle easy.
As she ate her bowl of cereal, Jules heard the sounds of heavy feet walking down the stairs. Not really thinking much of it, she continued on watching her show. “Morning.” She called back after swallowing a large bite. Her over sized t-shirt fell loosely from her body, barely hitting her knees as she sat cross legged on the couch. Her eyes shifted to the spot on the couch where Chris was when his voice started to echo throughout the room.
Jules’ heart started pounding and her mind went blank. Placing her bowl down on the table infront of them, she felt his piercing eyes, almost angrily waiting for her response. Sighing, she stood up and snatched up her bowl again, “I told you, I just thought you were tired so I didn’t want to pressure you. Please. Lets not make a mountain out a molehill.” Sighing, she turned on her heel and walked into the kitchen to wash her dishes.